Plateau-moving faith.

I’ve plateaued. I have not been feeling motivated in the past couple of weeks. I need to work out. I need to not because I feel fat (well some days I do feel soft and pudgy), but because I’m the type who needs to stay motivated lest I lose total interest.

The sky was really dark and grey today and it was only 2pm when I caught a glimpse of it. It seemed ominous, foreboding even and I did’t want to risk my car stalling in flood water and thereby risking my safety. So I stayed in. I just end up sleepy and tired, but if I nap I feel like I’ll waste the day. Then again, aren’t I already wasting it now?

I can smell the rain. The wind is harassing the trees outside my balcony and I can smell the rain and the earth as it wafts up and through my balcony doors. Feels like its 6:30pm and it’s only 3.

You know what I really want? A deep and intense hunger for God’s word. I bought a new Bible (ESV) because my NLT seemed a little…traditional. It felt like a bible and looked and read like a bible, Having grown up in a Christian home all my life, bible-reading can become a mechanical thing. So I bought a different version so that the experience could be new to me again. I feel terrible just admitting this but it’s the truth. There are some days when I can’t wait to crack open God’s Word and then there are days when I feel like it’s a story far removed from reality. I feel like I’m ready a story book on people who may or may not have existed. I hate it! I know in my head it’s real. But I want that truth and knowledge to make the distance from my mind to my heart.

Lord help me desire, thirst and crave Your Word. Help me want it so bad that I feel an intense need to read Your Word and hear from You. I want to desire You more and more each day and in every way.

I know You are faithful and will be found when sought earnestly. Help me get off this plateau Lord and back on the high-adrenaline race of life and fight of faith.